Post by Roddy Mancu$o on Nov 23, 2009 20:38:35 GMT -5
I made it!!! I am here! There are only two more evictions left and then there will be final jury questioning. That means that there are only 4 competitions left for me - the veto tonight and then three competitions for the final HoH (assuming that I get there).
Man did I ever disappoint myself in the HoH. I lost basically because I am an idiot and made an error in typing in something that would have been pretty close to the right answer. It was a stupid mistake that I made because I rushed myself.
However, the second best option was Lydia winning, so this is not so bad for me. I think that Jeff and Jordan are both deadset on evicting each other this week - which was kinda why I wanted them in the end together from earlier on. I am hoping that should I lose veto tonight, I might be able to skate by on the mutual disdain they have for oneanother.
That said, I know I NEED to win the veto tonight. Even though I am sure that this is the best possible group of people to have with me at this stage, I am not stupid enough to feel confident with anything but GUARENTEED safety.
I need this it because it would KILL me to leave this week. I have played this game harder than ANYBODY, and I have been in a pretty dominant position for about 75% of my stay in this house. When I wasn't in a such a good positioning (see Renny's HoH and Jeff's 4th HoH) I worked my ass off to make sure that I would recover. So to lose NOW, after everything that I have been through in this game, would REALLY suck.
Anyways, WHEN I win veto tonight (positive thinking, people!), I am not exactly sure what is the right decision for me. I am about 90% ready to boot Jeff, but there is this 10% nagging me. I am worrying about Jordan and Lydia's relationship. Will Lydia actually go to the final 2 with me? And where does Jordan stand? Would she even consider the possibility of taking me to the finals? Or have the two of them also made a final 2 deal? So many questions, and so many scenarios but with so few people!? What is it about the end of this game that makes it so much harder than the beginning?
I have a feeling Jeff would rather be sitting in front of that jury with me than with one of the girls, because we will both face bitterness. So it is hard for me to justify booting him, even though I know I probably will have to. I think if I keep him in the final 4, then I have given him the game because everyone would be so pissed with me.
If I get to the jury, and I get to say my piece and plead my case but end up losing, well that sucks, but at least I got a shot. I know that there will be bitter people with me, and I know that I will have an uphill battle, but hopefully I can pull it off.
Well, I guess this might be my last confessional depending on this veto. Wish me luck.
